Ytd attended INQ's 2nd meeting at Eitan's. There are 30 new promoters, which means i made 30 new friends! HAHA :D Yay man. After which the 'seniors' went for supper at macs. Lucretius treattttt! (: Enjoyed Winston, Wayne, Sylvester, Michael, Kevin, Luc and Amanda's company! Cabbed homeeee. Btw we saw a guy watching porn at Chinatown's macs using wireless@sg. Wtf and this china pros and this 80 yr old man were watching. Yes literally staring at his screen. So sylvester was like 'xiao jie, ni kan le hen xi huan hor' HAHA wa disturb sia. Anw he even acted like a police and told the guy to stop it. Coz its damn disturbing! LOL the guy took him for real and even took out his IC hahaha. Btw im damn happy Luc sent me to Tampines once again! No way im giving it up for the suntec roadshow man. Hahaha and i rlly wanna retain my top sales throne. Hope i can.. Will try my best to thrash this 3 fuckers who were trying to create a very awkward ambience during the meeting
-.- The rest were super super nice people though.. Hahaha love chatting with the nyp ppl. Lolllll. Malcolm and Hong Wei are in my team yesssss (:

Btw bought these two pairs of shoes! :D Soooo fking pretty.

Both in black. HAPPY ME (: even tho i spent like 100+++++. Eggcited during work now, making use of my lunch break to blog. Btw im meeting the seniors and the Boss of INQ (from UK) later for dinner at PS Swensens. Wish me luckkkk. Kinda nervous but owells. Hope my sales will only get better! :D byebyeeee.

Joshua's new car, my new transport to school. YAY!!! (:

Dear god, please protect Joshua from harm. Please give him the strength to overcome all the obstacles that might come his way. Please give him peace in his heart and eventually see light no matter how dark it gets. Allow him to persevere while he's on his way to building his career for a better tomorrow. Please let the better days come after years of hardship... I pray that his friends would overcome their sadness if Joshua ever leaves us.

I pray in Jesus's name,
Amen

Feels miserable you know. I really need a car/truck to bang me down right now. or a gun to shoot me. deep and accurately into my heart. or maybe self mutilate myself. this sounds like a crazy idea. but thats how painful it is for me right now. i need a better reason to cry than this shit. i need to feel physical pain to make me forget this feeling. please. i need to work. crazily. maybe 7 days a week, 24/7. i need to be busy, occupied. till i've got no time alone. otherwise i would think alot and emo and cry. hopefully one day i'd be left with no more tears to do so. i need to feel numb. i feel so alone. so empty. time passes so slowly. so dont leave me alone. PLEASE.